So, why the title?

Last year I had the wonderful opportunity to go to CKU. The track that I signed up for was "She" by Heidi Swapp. In class we created a scrapbook celebrating a "She" in our life. I decided to make the album about myself, a look at me for my kids. We had to create "sheisms" or statements describing that woman. Many of my sheisms were about me as a mom. Joe pointed this out and said that there was more to me than just being a mom. Yes, there is more to me. I am a wife, a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a cousin, a friend. But right now, at this point in my life, my main role is as a mother to Alex and Jenna. Joe and I have made a sacrifice to our financial life for the betterment of our family life. I chose to quit my job, which was my dream job, the job I worked so hard for, the job I earned two degrees for, to stay home and raise my kids. I have not one regret for doing so. I have no desire to go back to my "dream" job. My life is centered around my kids. My week is planned around their activities. My hobbies drift back to them. I scrapbook with my friends once a month - I scrap about my kids. I go out to dinner once a month with my friends - conversations always lead back to the kids. I don't mind that I'm not up on current events, that in an adult conversation I would sound far less than scholarly. I enjoy playing with my kids, being there when they need me most, watching them grow before my eyes. I know that my role in their lives will not always be as big as it is now. I know that one day I will have more time to focus on my other roles in life. For now, I will savor every moment - the good and the bad - the happy and the trying. For now, I will focus on me...as a mom.