It's Official

Alex is now officially registered for kindergarten. The meeting was at the school last night and I wasn't prepared for it at all. I had believed it was an informational meeting, telling parents things they can do to get their child ready for kindergarten, and that the paper work would be handed out, but would be turned in during registration week in August. No. That wasn't the case. Some of the paper work had to be turned in that night. I had no phone numbers with me for doctors or emergency contacts. I hadn't really decided on half-day or full-day. I just wasn't ready for it all. Then, the meeting began and I was thrown by some of the information. The first blow hit me when they said school would begin around the 15th of August. That's the middle of August, not the end of August as I had it in my mind for school beginning. It hit me that I would NOT have a full summer with Alex this year. I would NOT have almost two full months after the baby is born to help Alex adjust to that huge life change before embarking on another. The second blow hit when they said that on the first day of school I am allowed to walk Alex to the door of the building but that they do NOT want parents coming into the building and taking their child to the classroom. I knew that day would come, but not the FIRST day. Pregnancy hormones don't help, as I felt the tears come to my eyes just thinking about Alex beginning the next phase of his life. A phase more and more independent of me. There is no more I can do now. I've already held him back, it's time for this next phase. It's just such a long day. He will be gone from 8:15am when I drop him off to 3:20pm when I pick him up. I just hope that I can prepare myself over the next 6 months for this change. I think a lot of tissue will be needed for that day.